FIRST KISS FOR GOD

FIRST KISS FOR GOD oleh Nafeeza Al-Anshary



humbling my heart under the foot

in the whitest and loneliest tahajjud[1]

at last I happen to kiss god.

perhaps his foot or hand –

oh dear, the warmness felt to the depth of my soul

this is my first kiss,

after centuries I failed to do it

with thousands rakaat[2] and thirst

no smart words can achieve it

nor prayer in the deceit of tear

oh my darling, please take my heart

in the warmness of love



for years I yearn, like Rabiah[3]

who always yearned no one but you.

oh my beloved darling

please sink me into your benevolence



Jakarta, August 2003



1. Tahajjud is a prayer performed at mid night. One should take some sleep before it.

2. Rakaat is activity of standing, kneeling, bowing, and sitting by folding legs in a prayer.

3. Rabiah is a nick name of Rabiah al-Adawiyah. She is a well-know female sufi with a true love to God.





: diambil dari koleksi puisi-puisi kiriman suami saya yang saya koleksi sejak 1998


in the whitest and loneliest tahajjud